I set my previous Devotional Site to 100% private awhile back. I needed to write some "letters to God" and vent a bit as I worked through some things. A couple of my friends mentioned that they could not read my devotions any more and seemed interested in me having a public devotional site again. So here we are! A New Public Devotional Site.
The thoughts, prayers, and reflections I will post here, will be part of what I am learning about God and about Life.
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ABOUT ME: (My "testimony" sort of)
I am a born again spirit filled Christian.
What does this mean?
It means I am just like everyone else, kind of a mess (no offense meant here). I had no way to fix completely that mess enough reach out to God on my own. I did the one and only thing required for salvation, I ASKED.
What did I ask for?
My particular words were only, I want You. I want it all.
What was my heart saying to God?
I had heard the "path of salvation". I had been told that we are all sinners with no way to connect to a Holy Perfect God...That the penalty for sin is death...a perfect death untouched by sin-one none of us could offer...That because God loved us so much He sent Himself (His Son, Jesus) a perfect God-Man to pay that penalty...That Jesus did pay that penalty when He died on the cross and won our life when He arose perfect from death.
Well, I didn't need to be convinced that I was a sinner and that there was no way for me to get to Him on my own. But I wanted that LIFE that I saw in the Christians I knew. I wanted His Salvation and I wanted all of the LIFE God had to offer.
I asked someone what more did I have to do to get this "salvation" and this life. I was told all I had to do was repent (turn away from my own ways and give my ways to God) and ask God for forgiveness and life. I was amazed that all we had to do was ask. It was too good to be true, and yet I really wanted it. So I risked it, with the little tiny bit of faith that I had, I spoke in my mind and in my heart to God as directly and honestly as I could and I asked... for Him, for Forgiveness, for Salvation, for Life, for ALL OF IT.
What was God's response?
He forgave me and gave me life. The bible teaches us that He makes us into New Creatures, that the old ways are passed away and we are alive in Spirit. He did all of this. I was made "new".
Did my life change?
Yes. Was it easy? No. Was I somehow made perfect and fixed in everything? No. Did I mess up? Yes, a lot. --- The great thing though is that I am finding out that God is faithful (in everything). I asked for "it all" (see above) and He is working on giving "it all" to me. There is a lot of the old me and my destructive ways that I still cling to habitually, even though that part of me is "dead/dying" because of His Salvation and His Life that He has given me. God is teaching me through ... well... through everything what it means to be alive and really LIVING in the fullness of Life not just in this moment but eternally. He is teaching me what living eternally looks like during our life here on earth. He is guiding me and training me to live that kind of life. He is teaching me that it is okay for my spirit and heart to give out and that He is still God and He still holds me and keeps me and is not finished with me yet. For me and my particular mess that is HOPE. God gives us unshakable HOPE in a life filled with the fullness of eternal life in the here and now. Sounds mushy doesn't it. Well, I am a mushy kind of "girl". But under my "mushiness" is this almost too good to believe Truth about God, and it IS TRUE.
Something else you might want to know.
Truth is very important to me and I require evidence for my Truth.
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so to my friends that missed "hearing" my reflections, bible studies, thoughts, and prayers.... I AM BACK!
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